the agressive guy ...

i had chatted online to this guy on and off for a few weeks ... and we had exchanged text messages a few times ... i wasn't sure whether he was messing me around, but we didn't manage to get it together ...

eventually, after some protracted exchanges, i finally managed to visit him the other day ...

after taking phone directions for the final part, i knocked his door, and he called me in - it wasn't locked ...

his room was partly dark ... and he had gaydar open on my laptop ...

he showed me a few of the guys he had met recently - haven't had that happen before !

we got down to things fairly quickly ... and he seemed quite agressive ... a bit of biting - not sure that really does anything for me ... and he was obsessed with a deep BJ - so much so that i was gagging ... i really wasn't enjoying it much ...

i can't remember many occasions when i actually wanted to get it over and done with ... but this was one ...

i got him to jack himself off ... and he produced a very healthy load - which instantly sent me over the edge ...

after we cleaned up, he again went back to his laptop, and started showing me pics that guys had sent him of themselves ... and kept saying which ones were really nice people - something i certainly wouldn't say about him ... but maybe it's just that his type of sex isn't for me ...

the really tired mixed race guy ...

a couple of days ago i had almost given up after a while looking for some fun ... when a guy opened a chat window ... he seemd decent, and sent a couple of pics - he looked really hot ...

i arranged to go round, and after a slight delay i ended up getting a cab part of the way - seems really decadent, but the guy was in a bit of a rush to get off to meet some friends ...

we met on a street corner - i really hate don't like hanging around, makes me feel like a prostitute or something ... but at least the guy showed up this time !

we went round the corner to his place ... a lovely flat over a couple of floors - his flatmates were out, so we had the place to ourselves ...

i don't think the guy had been with another guy for quite some time ... and he was one of these guys who was more interested in receiving than giving - i think i should start restricting my activites to guys who enjoy both ...

he was also carrying a bit more weight than his pics suggested ... but he was really smooth - which i really enjoy - so i didn't object. he also really enjoyed cuddling, which i also enjoy ...

the weird thing was, he kept stopping - not sure if he was afraid that he would climax, or whether he was feeling weird about me, or what we were doing ...

whatever, we weren't at it for that long, before he climaxed ... which of course set me off !

he seemed quite chatty aftewards, asking me what i was doing for the rest of the day - and actually seemed interested, rather than just going through the motions ...

anyway, he seems like a nice guy - hope he starts enjoying himself a bit more ...

the idiot / nervous guy ...

the website that shall not be named provided another interesting encounter a few days ago ... was chatting to this guy ... he seemed decent enough ... and i arranged to go over and have some fun ...

normally i make sure that i have a mobile number before leaving, in case i get lost, or there are complications ... but this time the guy didn't want to give it out [claimed he didn't have either a landline or a mobile] ...

i thought that i'd take a risk, since he wasn't too far away, and he did give exact directions ...

so i got round, rang his buzzer ... no answer. rang again, no answer ...

i didn't want to waste the 15 min walk to get to his, just because he was in the bathroom ... so i thought that i'd give him a minute.

the amusing thing was that an obviously gay guy went into the appartment block whilst i was waiting - and i think he was probably up for it. but i don't do completely random meets - or not normally !

my third attempt - a guy comes on the intercom claiming i'd got the wrong flat ... but the weird thing was that he didn't seem that nervous. either he was a complete time wasting idiot, or else he got nervous about meeting up with me, and decided to bullshit ... or maybe he didn't like what he saw on the video screen ...

whichever scenario was the case, what a shitty thing to do ... not having the balls to say no, or say he'd changed his mind ...

even in the early days when i sometimes bottled it, i always apologised afterwards ...

can you tell when a guy has ejaculated ?

whenever i have had fun with a guy ... when i'm walking home afterwards ... girls always seem to look at me more ...

can they tell that i've just ejaculated ? it can't be smell - it's sometimes raining, and they look at me from too far away ...

is there a glint in my eyes ? does my skin gleam ? do i smile ?

the south african guy ...

i had chatted to this guy a couple of weeks ago ... but didn't manage to get it together ...

this time it all seemed to happen very quickly ... i was online ... we chatted briefly ... and i went round to his place ...

he and his boyfriend both occasionally have fun outside the relationship - but they seem to be quite happy with it ...

the guy had gorgeously smooth skin ... and a lovely thick dick, with a Prince Albert - first i'd seen ... and it didn't seem to worry him at all with his foreskin rubbing on it ...

feeling below his balls, he seemed to have really dry flaky skin ... not sure if this is some sort of STD ... or whether it was just dry skin. a bit too late to worry about it now - guess i should look it up and see if i need to be tested for something ...

with a porn DVD, it wasn't long before we both came ...

he seemed like a really nice guy ... and his flat was great ! he said he had been worried about having a guy back, in case he got robbed ... not surprised with such a great flat !!

a date with what i thought was an english guy ...

so once again [this is beginning to sound like groundhog day], i had been chatting to this guy online - he had good pics, and his profile sounded good ...

the first time i had tried to contact him, he rushed off ... but i tried again ... and he sounded more interested ... and eventually we chatted for a good couple of hours online ...

he asked interesting questions ... and he sounded very genuine ...

we made plans to meet up for a drink a few days later ...

he arrived a little late ... and looking a bit washed out ... i had a made a bit of an effort by actually wearing a shirt [i'm not good on the taking care of my appearance front] - he looked a little bit like he had just crawled out of bed ... and as ever, not quite as young as his profile pics had suggested !

but, we chatted, and he turned out to be a really interesting guy ... good fun, interesting, and challenging ...

he asked me lots of questions - i tried not to talk too much [i have a tendancy] ... but he seemed slightly uncomfortable when i asked him too much !

he was a little bit camp in the pub [not too much] ... and when we left, he seemed a bit more camp - but not as much as the english guy a couple of weeks ago ...

it was strange - i didn't immediately want to jump his bones - which is unusual ... most guys turn me on straight away ! but he seems a really nice guy ... hopefully we will meet again ... will be interesting to see how things develop ...

the really mixed race guy ...

i'd been chatting to this guy online for a while ... really quite a long while ... he seemed really nice - overused word, but applicable in this case ...

we eventually sorted out a day - to meet for a drink ... but the day beforehand, when i checked that he was still on for a drink, he suggested going to his flat as his flatmate would be out ...

after meeting a friend for dinner beforehand ... i eventually managed to get away, and got a cab around to his place [for some reason it felt a bit slutty getting a cab somewhere for sex - maybe because i try and avoid this over-priced transport if at all possible] ... i phoned him from outside in order to find his front door - he sounded decent ...

lovely looking guy ... i went in ... took the offered glass of water ... he put on a porn DVD ... i never actually checked that he want to do stuff ... it just seemed to start ...

he had said that he wanted a suited guy ... and he seemed to know what he wanted - as in he sort of manoeuvered me into the positions ... but once again, another guy who when asked what he particularly finds hot, can't or won't answer ...

after the usual preliminaries ... our trousers come off, and his t-shirt [but not our socks] - he really has an amazingly slim body - not very big cock, but the whole package is awesome ... his face isn't the most attractive ever, but his body makes up for anything - not that there is much to make up for ! he has a lovely voice/accent - silkily smooth ...

he likes being sucked off - and i'm able to take all of his cock in my mouth ... and he returns the favour ... he also does this amazing sucking of my balls, and around my balls - it was absolutely mind blowing ! eventually he wants me to cum in his mouth ... and as i blow an enormous load, i almost feel like i am gonna piss [i don't remember experiencing this before], but thankfully i don't ...

he shoots load as i cum in his face ... squatting down he shoots on the floor - shame it wasn't somewhere i could use it ...

after cleaning up [he looks funny scurrying around in just his socks], we chat a bit [and i realise that he does a good line in arm waving!] - he was a bit worried that we might be interrupted - so i head off ... with him saying that he would catch up with me online later - an easy way of saying that he wasn't interested in a repeat event ?

the next day i send him a message - to which he sends a pleasant reply ...

repeat with the half african guy ...

i'd met this guy a few times before ... it was fun, but he was one of those bi guys who doesn't kiss - which really is not something i like ...

we chatted online for a bit - and managed to sort out the details ...

i went to see him that evening ... he has a lovely uncut dick - which seems to be constantly hard ... we spend a while messing around in his bed [he's a bit conventional] ... he seems to love looking at my dick ... after a while we both shoot a load - i luv the look of his white cum on his black skin ...

his dick feels lovely when it's soft ... nice and thick ... but it doesn't take long before he's hard again ... and after some more playing with each other, we're both shooting again ...

afterwards we chat for a while ... and we talk about his job - funny that this is the first time that's he actually said much about it ...

i'm not sure about seeing him again - whilst he definitely has his good points, the lack of kissing is really frustrating ...

date with the english guy ...

after chatting to a guy online for a while ... we agreed to meet for a drink in a local pub ...

he was a strange mixture of interesting and conventional ... i thought we were getting on well, but he made a comment about me not asking him questions ... which i think said more about his need to talk rather than about my lack of inquisitiveness [i'm usually accused of the opposite] ...

i was thinking that i'd like to meet him again [he made it clear before we met that sex was not on the cards] ... but as we're walking back from the pub to the main road ... i realise that he is quite camp ... and i find it awkward walking down the street with a camp guy ...

we part, and he tells me to give him a call ... not mentioning that he might call me ...

i don't really know how to tell him that i don't want to meet again ... maybe because i'm not completely sure that i don't want to ?

he has left tracks on my profile ... but hasn't messaged me ...

the south east asian guy ...

once again, i had chatted online with this guy for quite a while - his photos looked good, and he sounded like fun ...

we met in a bar and had a slightly awkward drink ... he was nice, but conversation didn't flow particularly easily ... partly due to his heavily accented english ...

trouble was that i hadn't checked beforehand that if we liked each other that we could go back to his place ... so we left the pub, and walked aimlessly around the streets for a while ...

i haven't messed around with a guy outdoors for ages - it's so sleazy, and the constant worry of getting caught means that you can't really get lost in the event ...

well, we found somewhere, and had a reasonably enjoyable wank ...

shame - he was a really good looking guy [gorgeously tight ass] ... it would have been fun to have had something more relaxing ...

the american mixed race guy ....

tuesday evening ... feeling like some fun ... logged onto gaydar ... after various chats, this good looking young guy wanted to come round, as his flatmates were at home ... but we agreed to wait until the following day, when he could accommodate ...

wednesday morning, walked over to his ... and there was no answer from the doorbell ... rang him up, yep, i'd got the right house, and he'd come and open the door ... a minute later (always seems like longer - never know what neighbours are twitching at their curtains), still no answer ... ring the doorbell again ... eventually he comes down ...

ok, so those photos on your profile - how old are they ? i don't say anthing, but they must be at least 6 years old ... but he's still a fairly good looking guy ... just quite different to his profile pics. we go up to his bedroom ... i'm not sure if anything is going to happen, as he gets under his duvet fully dressed ... so i take it easy ... and we chat for a while - he has a bit of a "talking at you" habit, rather than a proper interactive conversation ... but still, he seems like a nice guy ...

the issue of when we last were with another guy comes up - not sure if we are both answering the same question (his/my accents can be a little hard to understand sometimes) - and he says his last was in May ! i must have got that wrong, surely ! i claim it was a few weeks ago - didn't want to seem too slutty !!

i make a few moves closer to him, and after about half an hour ... we are starting to have some interaction ... eventually clothes slowly start coming off ... and we're down to our boxers ... so we play with each other for quite a while ... and he has this thing about pulling the duvet over our heads ! i've never had this before - makes me wonder is he embarassed about his own body (a bit chunky, but not extreme), or does he prefer not to see mine (slightly less chunky than his, i think) ... it's a bit strange ! and it actually gets quite stuffy under the duvet - i keep having to come up for air !

eventually our boxers come off, although it's mostly body contact that seems to get him off ... he isn't forthcoming with what else does it for him, which i always find a bit frustrating - it's so much easier to please a guy if you get some indications ! after a bit of sucking, and lots more body contact ... he shoots a load ... and i'm not far behind - although my jetstream hits his pillow, (despite my attempt at controlling it) oops !

after cleaning up, and getting dressed, we lie on his bed together for a while (tv still on) ... i ask him about some slight scars on his hand (it's almost becoming a theme) - turns out they are from a family argument !

eventually it's time for me to leave, and he says for me to call him ... i don't mention that he could always try calling me !

the smooth mixed race guy ...

sunday lunchtime ... had just been to see a film which unexpectedly feature a gay couple ... was feeling a bit horny, logged onto gaydar to have a look ...

saw a guy that i had chatted to who a couple of months ago, who lives nearby - he's older than i normally go for, but he has good pics, and looks well fit. we start messaging each other (he isn't using chat) ... and using my charms, i manage to convince him that i'm worth a try - so we exchange mobile numbers, and he give me his address ...

grab a very quick lunch, spend a while in the bathroom trying to make myself presentable, spray on some deoderant (have been up and out for a few hours, so not completely sweet smelling) ... and head over ...

find his place - head up to his apartment, and i'm barely in the door, and he's kissing me - what a result, it turns out that he likes slightly stocky guys ... and he is just as fit in real life as his pics ... and he seems like a really nice guy too. he offers me juice, but i just take some water ... he's got a nice accent, not too strong, but interesting, and fully fluent english ...

after a few minutes, it's into his bedroom ... and slowly undressing each other - really nice ... he's going commando - really horny ... and onto his bed ... he's got a gorgeous tanline from his speedos ... and for the 2nd time in a week, he's got a scar ! in a suitable lull in proceedings, i bring it up, and he tells me the full story - fairly heavy shit, but he seems cool about it ... so we press on ...

i can't believe that this hot guy is enjoying it so much ... he really seems into me, and we have to take a break, as he is so close to cumming ... he loves being held tight ... and with his gorgeously smooth skin, it's a pleasure to oblige ...

he gives great head, but he won't tell me what he really likes, so i try sucking him, and rimming him (tastes so much better than the french guy), and playing with his ears ... but it seems what he most likes, is the fully body contact - which is good for me too ... he says that he'll tell me next time what really turns him on ... whereas i dont hold back telling him what i like !

i thought that this might be a fairly quick session, but an hour later, i'm already late for an engagement, but i'm enjoying it so much, that i don't worry. eventually he cums, rubbing against me, without touching himself - i think that's a new one for me. and then i use his cum to wank myself off, holding him close ...

we clean up reasonably quickly, as he's got places to go too ... and i'm off ... hopefully to return another time - but guess i'll just have to wait and see ...

in the evening, i send him a message through gaydar (thought it was less intrusive than a text message), thanking him, and suggesting that we try it again sometime ! i never know whether to make contact afterwards - some really decent guys i've met up with previously, i didn't contact, and we haven't spoken since ... so to avoid further communication blackouts, i think i'll try to in future ...

the french guy ...

i hadn't had any action for a week and a half ... i wasn't feeling desperately horny ... but logged onto gaydar to see if there was a chance of some fun ...

went to a local chatroom ... and after a while, noticed a track from a guy who i'd chatted to ages ago ... at that stage he had a girlfriend, and we didn't manage to meet up ... but i had made a note that he was interested in getting a load in his face ...

i messaged him after seeing his track, and he replied ... a few messages later he had sent facepics [unprompted], and i replied with my blurry photo ... after a while we opened a chat window and discussions continued ... he was looking for a wank/rim/not fuck ... which sounded good to me ... and time was short, as he was going out ...

after swapping mobile numbers, and his street and postcode ... i headed out to get the tube over to his ... and what should have been a 10 minute tube journey, managed to take about 20 minutes ...

got to his place, he looked good - quite skinny (good), lacking in hair on his head (not so good) but reasonable looking (my standards aren't that high) ... and with time pressing, we go down to it, into his bedroom (trying to ignore the rosary beads) ... he had an interesting body - quite a bit of hair on his chest and stomach, in nice lines and not too much, and nice hairless sides and back ... and an interesting uncut dick - not too big, but ample ...

he had a couple of cats in his flat, and whilst they didn't get in the way, it almost feel like meeting somebody's flatmates ! i also forgot that he smoked - sometimes guys taste of nicotine, but maybe his habit was mild, as he didn't.

after the usual openings ... i went to rim him (not my favourite activity, but sometimes enjoyable to give), only to find he had the hairiest ass i have ever seen - thick shrubbery is about the only comparison i can think of ... and after parting the forest, unfortunately discovered that he had one of those unpleasant tasting asses ... i haven't done it enough to know whether it is just not fully washed (didn't seem a problem here), or whether some guys just taste that way ... i felt selfish not rimming him when he had specifically mentioned it, but i couldn't do it !

he however was a seriously impressive rimmer - we were in the 69 position, when he moved back to rim me, and wow did he get his mouth working - not just on my asshole, but the whole area around it ... that really was unexpectedly enjoyable ...

with time pressing, he asked me to shoot a load in his mouth ... and taking the matter in hand, i duly complied ... but focusing on my own performance for a moment, i managed to miss his main ejaculation - shame, as i love seeing a dick explode ... but presumably my cum in his mouth pushed him over the edge, as he pulled on his dick. still, good to see him blow a decent load - even if it didn't look like a full week's worth (he had previously claimed he hadn't even wanked in the previous 7 days) ... although i guess everybody is different in that respect ...

after cleaning up with the fresh facecloths that he provided, we both got dressed quite quickly, as he was already late. despite hurrying, he managed to be faster than me ... i tried not to delay him any longer, and kept the post coital chat to a minimum (managed to not ask him about the small scars near his pelvis - would love to know what they're from). as i left, i went to shake hands with him (i don't normally, just that in my experience, the french are serial hand shakers) ... but maybe he's been in London too long, as it was a bit awkward !

anyway, i had a reasonably good time ... he seemed to as well ...

even hours later, despite scrubbing my hands, i can still smell him - not that it's unpleasant ... it seems like some guys stick to my skin more than others ...

what it's about ...

i guess it will develop ... but first thoughts are to write down some of the stuff that is happening to me ... since i don't talk to my friends about my sexual encounters ... thought that it might be useful to express it somewhere ... and maybe even get some interesting comments !